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i wrote a song… in my mind


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so my dream is to be a professional singer/songwriter.  this gentleman on the right is one of my favorites: james taylor.  he’s like 60 years old and still has one of the softest, smoothest, soothing voices i know.  plus he can finger pick a guitar into next tuesday (what that means i have no idea, but he good).  how far away i am from my dream, i’m not sure.  i’m taking baby steps to getting to where i need to be; meaning, i’m in the process of writing songs right now.  i haven’t really gotten anywhere yet, but any minute now, i’m expecting something great to just fall out of my mind.

a couple people have told me that when i sing or play guitar, i seem like a different person.  i would definitely agree, but it’s not because i choose to be.  you see, i am normally a very introverted person.  i don’t like to speak out and usually keep to myself, lacking confidence.  but when i sing or play guitar i am pretty extroverted and i could speak and have confidence in what i’m doing.  it’s kind of like, stick a microphone in front of me and i turn into a different person.  it’s kind of like those episodes of family matters where steve urkel steps into his cool transforming machine and turns into “stefan urkelle”.  why is this?  i have a hypothesis that being an introvert my whole life has repressed a lot of my extroverted side so whenever i get the chance, i like to take advantage of being in the spotlight.  it’s like, “this is my chance, everyone’s listening and who knows when they will listen again?”

i think i’m an extrovert trapped in an introvert’s personality.  i like to be different, but i don’t like to speak out.  i like to be the center of attention, but i live on the fringes.  i like who i am when i get to play music and sing.  i’d like to party with him.  that other guy who doesn’t play music or sing, ehhh… i wouldn’t really like to hang out with him.  he’s kinda lame.  i used to joke around suggesting maybe i should just sing all the time.  instead of speaking words, i’d just sing them and that way i could be the cool, confident self that i’d like to be.  unfortunately that cannot be the case, so i’ll just have to deal with it.


Written by enoch

July 19, 2008 at 10:51 pm

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  1. i feel you on this one. i think that’s why i used to rap in high school / college.


    July 20, 2008 at 1:58 am

  2. dude, you should go watch Once

    I felt like songs can just come out of me after watching that movie

    do you have anything recorded??
    I’m in the same process just brainstorming ideas and working with some friends.

    Can’t wait to hear some stuff you got

    big si

    July 20, 2008 at 3:43 am

  3. actually, i did watch once. i was inspired. such a great movie. well, it’s not really a great movie, but the music was excellent. i think i’m still trying to find my style. i’m pretty eclectic so it’s hard for me to choose which direction i want to go in. i thought about writing songs in all different types of genres. i dunno about that one though.


    July 20, 2008 at 7:24 am

  4. I like the introverted one because he’s the #1 Mario Kart player at church


    July 20, 2008 at 10:05 am

  5. how many musicians do u need 2 change a lite bulb?^___^

    just 1 coz they dont like 2 share the spotlite!^____^


    July 20, 2008 at 7:55 pm

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