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responsibility.

what does it mean to you?

for me, i always cringe at the thought of responsibility.  i think a lot of it has to do with my own insecurities.  i don’t feel like i’m qualified to take on responsibilities, what if i fail?, there’s got to be someone else better suited for the task.

i’m always impressed and intrigued by people who take responsibility head-on.  those people who say, “i’ll do it” with all the confidence in the world.  and you know by the way they said it, that the job will get done.  i’ve always been jealous of those people.  i wish i could commit to doing something and people would know that it would get done because i was doing it.  but it’s really hard for me for some reason.  maybe it’s a fear of commitment.  or maybe it’s a poor self-image i have of myself.  when i see people younger than me take on responsibility, i feel challenged yet awed at the same time.  i think, “dag yo, i’m impressed by their attitude in taking charge, but i wish i could do the same.”

however, lately i’ve been taking responsibility head-on.  things i’ve been afraid to do for the longest time, i’ve committed to doing.  and i’ve been doing everything i can to let people know that it will get done.  i think i’m the type of person that just has to take the plunge and once i do, things are fine.  it’s like skydiving.  it’s just getting into the airplane that i have to be taken kicking and screaming.  but once i jump, i’m fine and i enjoy myself.  i wouldn’t consider myself to be an adventurous person.  i don’t like to take risks and prefer the familiar to a new experience.

but for me, responsibility means maturity.  hopefully facing responsibility in the face and telling it that i can handle it shows some kind growth.  ya hear that responsibility?!  i’m not afraid anymore!

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Written by enoch

September 4, 2008 at 8:46 pm

Posted in from my mind

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  1. that’s right! you tell ’em!

    i think i’m kinda the same way, especially being a younger sibling… but i suppose when you’re forced to take on more responsibility, it becomes more of a ‘do or die’ 😛

    hg

    September 4, 2008 at 10:37 pm

  2. ‘I CAN I CAN I CAB!^___^

    Anonymous

    September 5, 2008 at 9:33 am

  3. are you the guy version of me?

    heej

    September 5, 2008 at 1:41 pm

  4. Responsibility? Pshhh… Who needs that?

    Eric

    September 5, 2008 at 4:07 pm


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