the form comes through
personally, i love performing. apparently, it’s not something that other people like to do. people don’t like public speaking, they don’t like doing things in front of people, etc. me? i love it.
i remember taking drama class in middle school. i loved it. i loved the spotlight. i loved taking on different characters. i loved entertaining people. i even loved wearing a dress and wig for one play we performed for other classes (but that’s another story).
at synod in high school (a church retreat for youth groups), my favorite part of the retreat were the skits. i prided myself in the fact that my group’s skits were always solid and funny.
i used to perform at a cafe back in my hometown with my friend from high school. we would play guitar and sing some songs.
fast forward to today, or in today’s times. i’m taking a Scripture reading practicum class at school where we get to (get this) learn how to read Scripture. it sounds kinda whack but it’s actually pretty fun. today we got to “act out” some emotions and subtexts, meaning that beyond our words, there is a meaning behind the words. things like tone, delivery, etc. we got to portray emotion in reading some lines. it was really fun.
i think what i like about performing is that you get to put it all out there. you get to hang all your emotion out for the world to see. there is no holding back. you can’t think that you’ll look silly or that other people will make fun of you. you have to put yourself fully out there. performing can be so powerful to other people. i mean, it’s pretty powerful. you can make people cry with performance.
i think i also like it because it’s my creative outlet. i don’t really get to express myself that much, but man, put a microphone and an empty stage in front of me and i’ll take advantage. isn’t that weird though? as an introvert, why would i like to be in front of people like that? maybe i’m really an extrovert trapped in an introvert’s body. i dunno. people say that i’m a completely different person when i’m singing, or acting, or performing. i just like performing.