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it’s all about me

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AllAboutMeLargethis is kind of a revisit of a past post: don’t be modest.

i still have a hard time accepting compliments.  this past month i’ve had a birthday, pastor appreciation month, and my mid-course assessment at school.  this month has just been packed full of “enoch time”.  and it feels really weird to be the center of attention and have groups of people talk about you to your face.

i don’t really know how to take it when people talk about who i am to them or what i mean to other people.  it’s weird right?  but i feel like in a perfect world, there’d be a lot more of that.  so why can’t i take it?

i remember when i was younger in youth group, we had a time at a retreat where we washed each others’ feet.  i refused to let anyone wash my feet (much like peter in the Bible) because i didn’t want anyone to serve me.  it was then that i learned about pride.  pride wasn’t just thinking you were the best, but it was also thinking that you were the worst.  pride is thinking you’re the best at being the servant and therefore no one can serve you.  and to be honest, i still have a problem with this.

so this past month, i’ve had to get used to people doing things for me or saying things about me to my face or just being the topic of discussion for an extended period of time.  it’s really hard.  i’d assume that it’d be hard for a lot of people to just sit there while people say things about you.  in asian culture, you NEVER accept a compliment without humbling yourself first.  darn you asian shame-based culture!!

so as this month ends, i’ll be kind of glad the focus isn’t on me anymore, but also taking with me the lesson that it’s ok if the world revolves around you some of the time.

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Written by enoch

October 27, 2009 at 12:19 pm

Posted in from my mind

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  1. you deserve some enoch time!!

    heej

    October 28, 2009 at 9:41 am

  2. i think the problem with the asian shame based cultures is that it’s false humility. it encourages one to think less of oneself, instead of thinking of oneself less. (the secret of seminary…)

    HG

    October 31, 2009 at 5:35 am

  3. heyyy you haven’t written anything in two weeks..

    fan #20498572045280

    November 11, 2009 at 1:16 pm


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